JIAEN!♥
16 year old, 23ᵀᴴ August.
Student Councillor.
Track & Field.
4A1'09.
LOYANG SECONDARY SCHOOL.

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Hey baby, when we are together, doing things that we love.
Every time you're near I feel like I'm in heaven, feeling high
I don't want to let go, girl.
I just need you to know girl.

Cant remember what happen this few days.
Yesterday went back to school to help out.
Didnt really helped much.
Went out with XY, E and XY's friend to Simei ITE.
After that XY's friend left.
Met up with A at Tampines.
Watched Princess and the frog.
After movie,
Meet up with ZX and Waynn at arcade.
arcade till 10 plus.
Then went to eat Soursop at F.J.
Then took bus back to DTE.
Had 'dinner' at 7-11.
Supposed to be going cycling today with my track people.
But was raining,
so i cancelled it.
:(

XY went to Malaysia already.
Gonna miss her.
Enjoy yourself over there with your childhood friend.
Take care.
:D
<3 and misss

Happy Christmas Eve. :D

Wrapped in confusion
Were you only using me to try to get him back
You set me up and that was my mistake
And all I got was permanent heartbreak
Damaged beyond repair
I was, I was much better off
Before I met you
And your with him
It pisses me off that your A-Okay
And all that I've got is permanent heartbreak

Got my N level result.
Managed to go up to sec5 next year.
Most of my classmates managed to promote up.
Im so happy for them.
:D
Nervous, cause im the first to collect the results.
Yesterday had 3 plans.
1st was go to Jurong and find my parents and relative there cause one of my cousin birthday.
2nd was go out with Xueting for dinner.
3rd was go out with Xueyin and all to catch a movie.

So i chose 3rd one cause it was plan a few days before yesterday.
Sorry Xueting and all, didnt accompany you all to Bedok 85 for dinner. Next week?
Watched Avatar, 11.40pm show.
End around 2.45am.
Took cab back.
Slept around 3am.
Woke up at 12pm.

since you did well for this n level
i dont have to worry much.
i didnt affect you much,
so i can put down already.
like what she said,
no point giving myself high hopes.
bye, emotions.

didnt have time to update blog.
Busy everyday.
Now waiting for E to get ready.
Meeting XY after one day.
:D
going for BBQ later at night.

Is it over
Or can I turn you around
If I crawl on my knees
To rewrite, "I'm sorry" tonight
Would you care or are you already gone

Yesterday went out with XY, E, A and L.
Arcade-ed at CS.
Jubeat for few hours.
L accompanied me to F.J to eat.
walked around.
W came.
Slack.
A and D came.
Slack.
Then saw ZX there.
All went to eat, except me.
After that all went to City hall, except L.
Looked for Ori.
Look at heels and all.
Walk and walk.
Ori came,
ate Pizza Hut.
The guys all went to CS.
Atfer eating, look for A's christmas present.
Then O waited for her parents there.
XY and I went to CS.
Jubeat.
Then go Mac and slack.
Laugh and laugh.
then to DTE.
Then home.

Couldnt sleep properly.
Woke up alot of times within one hour.
Replied Ori's message.
Daddy sent me to school.
they ran at Tampines Park Connector.
Sit at a spot for the whole training.
Then to DTE with the boys plus A and M.
Lunch at KFC.
Played Bowling after that.
Met XY and K at arcade.
Changed to home clothes.
Then left to CS.
Jubeat.
Then K left.
A came to look for present.
Then XY went to look for E and co.
Looked around TM for present with A.
Minitoons then ended in Toys 'R' Us.
XY came.
Then slack,
Then sent her to interchange.
Waited for bus 81.
Then took bus 21 to DTE.
Met up with XT, TW and ZK.
Watched The Storm Warrior.
Then slack,
met XY.
Then E came while we slacking at 5th floor.
Took photos.
Then XT, TW and ZK went off.
XY and E played one round of pool.
Took bus and home.

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time
Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you
Yes I will

Yesterday, Woke up at 8 am.
Get ready to go for training.
Met up with Arisa and Liyana.
They did some strengthening exercise.
The weather was super hot.
After training,
Slack in the toilet.
Decided to go to TM for lunch and shopping.
had lunch at Long John Silver.
After lunch,
to Uni Qlo for shopping.
Bought my red polo teeshirt.
Went to Urbanwrites.
Elle get her stuff.
Liyana and i was looking through the birthday book.
Quite true and its interesting.
Elle went home.
Nitamie and I went to Liyana's house.
Played Guitar Hero.
Played drums.
Liyana and Nitamie played bass and guitar.
Nitamie switched to Vocal.
3 plus, Nitamie left.
Liyana changed to Vocal.
I practiced my drums.
After training on drums,
Played guitar follow by bass.
4 plus left,
went to look for E and XY.
Then XY went to Jubeat.
E went back to work.
Slack.
10 plus,
waited for E to end work.
Took bus to DTE.
Then E wanted to play pool,
but counter close.
So XY played jubeat.
She improved alot.:D
Bus and home.

Don't try to explain your mind
I know what's happening here
One minute, it's love
And, suddenly, it's like a battlefield
One word turns into a
Why is it the smallest things that tear us down
My world's nothing when you're gone
I'm out here without a shield - can't go back, now

This few days,
a very hard time for me to get up again.
No matter what,
I will stand up after my fall.
Thanks XY the most.
Always there for me:D

Woke up,
I saw this envelope on the desk.
Open up.
And was the letter i wrote for someone.
was supposed to give before the person go for her/his ....
But i guess,
its useless now.
going out later.
On the 5th of DEC,
i was having a nice chat with my brother.
Its been so long since i really chat with him.
Told him stories and about the Stalker.
HahaXD.
He laughed.

Yesterday,
Out with XY, E, A and L.
To CS.
Jubeat session for hours.
LOL.
Dinner,
out with parents and younger brother.
Its been so long since i went out with my parents for a dinner.
Enjoyed:)
memories.
Daddy was being a joker there.
And
My parents made me felt so MALU.
Like as if is match-making session.
SO PS!!

those memories. will always be remembered, even if anything happened to me.
the pain is getting more frequently.
i know which part is feeling the pain.
bring the pain away,
my heartaches. please?

How can i miss you if you never would stay?
If you need time i guess I'll go away.
Inside me now there's only heartache and pain!
So where's the fire?
You've begun the rain

What's happening?
Why is everything happening in this month?
Wasn't it supposed to be a brand new month?
Why is it full of heartache and pain?
Why are the one i love leaving me?
Why?

Just bring me away.

I could make you happy, make your dreams come true
Nothing that I wouldn't do
Go to the ends of the earth for you
To make you feel my love

Woke up 10 plus,
cause of some calls from my younger brother's teacher.
So cant sleep back.
Computer till 3 plus.
Watch some show mommy bought.
One of them was about Auntie Lucy.
After watching,
waited for XY.
Took bus3 to DTE.
Slack.
Arcade.
Went to WS.
Then ate dinner with XY's parents.
Then back to DTE.
Pool.
Then slack.
Went to mac,
two vanilla cone ice cream.
Then to JustAcia.
Then waited for E to come.
Then went to play pool.
After pool,
Home.

didnt take my medicine.
My energy is like weaker by 2x.
thinking of those memories everytime.

Hey baby, when we are together, doing things that we love.
Every time you're near I feel like I'm in heaven, feeling high

Went to meet Arisa, Orisha for Breakfast.
Ate at mac.
Then went back to school.
Arisa ran with the track team.
I looked for Ori and go see doctor.
Then we must take height and weight all.
I grew shorter:D
Take medicine, payment and go.
Went back to school to look for my Track girls.
Then went to Arisa's house.
She changed and all.
Went to take bus to DTE.
Played bowling.
Then ate at KFC.
Then all went home.
Met A and L.
Then arcade.
Then slack at bowling centre.
L went off first.
Ate dinner at Justacia.
Then XY came.
She made nebo.
Then MIP card.
I made with her:(
Then pool.
till 12 with E, NK, E and XY.
Didnt play cause was coughing badly.
My cough is like worse.
gonna meet XY later. :D

what're you thinking?

If I ever hurt you its not my intention
Cause were gonna make our mistakes
Find out how much your heart can take
But I know that you got my back

Supposed to meet Adrian and Larry at 10.45am at Century Square.
But i was late.
Went to find XY,
meet up with Eugene first.
He was supposed to head towards WS.
But he took the same bus as me to West Plaza.
Cause his friends all still at home.
Went to NTUC.
Then waited for E's bus to come.
Then went up to XY's house.
Soon took bus 81 to CS.
Went to arcade.
Then slack inside.
Till lunch at Popeyes. :D
Then back to arcade.
Then head back to DTE.
Then slack.
Shauna came,
XY and Shauna went to play pool.
Played bowling with Adrian and Larry,
first game anyhow play.
Second game starting to get serious.
The last few pins,
A and I was like fighting for 1st and 2nd place.
Then he strike,
i also strike.
Damn funny.
In the end, I win him:D
Then Larry went off first.
Then went to find XY and Shauna.
Played a few rounds.
Tag team with A.
I shoot in so many,
and thanks, he helped me lose.
LOL.
Then A went off.
Shauna went to eat at Superdog.
Then she went for her Class BBQ.
Then XY pei me go eat.
In the end,
she also eat something.
Then E came down.
I felt like im like babysitting like that.
Change shift.
Then went to WS.
Then send XY home.
Then took bus 89 back to DTE.
Then E ate Justacia.
I ate ice cream only.
Chit chat.
Then decided to play pool.
Then Shauna came.
XY came,
Played till 12am.
Then went to Cheers then play cards.
Then Shauna went home first.
Then continue.
Then Cheers.
Then Mac.
Then walked home cause is 1 am plus.
Then on the way,
keep taking photos.
Nice:D
Gonna meet Arisa and Ori for Breakfast later,
gonna wake up at 6.50am.
Less than 4 hours of sleep.
Tmr got alot of events on.
but im happy so i wont think much.

a brand new month.
hope good things happen this month.
why am i still looking forward to that day?

why is my mind not resting?
thinking and dreaming of weird things.
things that wont happen,
unless miracles do happen.
i cant sleep.
i cant talk.
i cant smile.
i cant hear.
i cant smell.
i cant see.
i cant move.
i cant think.
i cant do things,
cause im locking myself in a room that no one can enter.

I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night

Went to meet XY,
took bus and went to meet Bella.
Then slack,
Then arcade.
went to Tampines.
Then slack.
Ate the Strawberry Yogurt.
Nice:D
Then slack.
Waited for Adrian.
Decided to meet him at WS.
Went to Kopitiam to eat.
YEESWEN came,
so long never meet this little girl.
Adrian came.
Brought Little girl to Challenger cause she want to buy headphone. Same one,
but different colour.
Then arcade.
Walked to DTE.
Arcade.
Then played Pool.
Then went to Justacia,
Ate chocolate chip ice cream.
:D
i miss that place so much.
Then YS went home first.
Then Adrian left around 11.
Then slack at arcade again.
Then went to Cheers to buy drinks.
Took bus 3A and home.
Later gonna go out with XY and all, plus Adrian and Larry:D

I thought I had all the answers never giving in
But baby since you've gone I admit that I was wrong
All I know is I'm lost without you I'm not gonna lie
How am I going to be strong without you I need you by my side
If we ever say we'll never be together and we ended with goodbye don't know what I'd do ...
I'm lost without you
I keep trying to find my way but all I know is I'm lost without you
I keep trying to face the day I'm lost without you

Mommy didnt bring me go to Batam.
:(
Cause of my cough and sore throat.
Idiot!
nevermind, next time she will bring me go.
:D

not sure what is today's plan.
should be out with XY.
not sure:D


i really want to talk to you:(

Going to Batam later.
Going to wake up at 8am.
Sorry if i didnt reply.
Will reply when i return tmr.
Mommy suddenly ask want to go there anot.
Sitting boat,
i scared i got sickness.
Sore throat is like getting worst.
Just now,
ate Mango Sago with ice cream.
I think it made it worst.
going to eat medicine.

i want to know the truth,
please?

How can I move on
when I'm still in love with you?
Cause' if one day you wake up
and find that you're missing me
and your heart starts to wonder
where on this earth I could be,
Thinking maybe you'd come back here
to the place that we'd meet
Then you'd see me waiting for you
on the corner of the street,
So I'm not moving
I'm not moving
Policeman says "Son you cant stay here"
I say there's someone I'm waiting for if its a day, a month, a year,

Just reach home not long.
Slept around 2 plus and woke up at 6.
Daddy's not in SG,
sad or else i dont have to wake up so early.
Went to school.
Was supposed to do the noticeboard for Track and field/Cross Country.
But Kenneth came late.
So i went to help to move chairs.
Moved 60 chairs.
After that, went to do noticeboard.
Anyhow do:P
Soon,
i helped in the balloon thingy.
The pictures are with Arun.
Then tie the balloon at the gate.
Played abit of Helium :D
Voice didnt change much but still funny.
Was assigned to ushering.
But i dont have the voice.
So i slack around,
chit chat.
Played BBall.
Then help out with the refreshment booth,
Then pack up,
give away those extra food.
Went to clubhouse and play.
Then Fabian, Ian and XM accompany me wait for bus.

To ROS:
i wont go,
you should know i wont.
Im stubborn,
thats me.

why is it so hard to understand a person?
talk to me?
i just want to know.

You can't play on broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that aint real

Slept around 2 plus and wake up around 11 plus.
Sickness,
Pain.
Voice change.
i cant talk.
i dont like July or Nov.
Cause its the same.
Nothing goes well,
but its okay.
Tmr is the day,
but everything its going to be okay.
I will let go,
even if i takes my life to do so.

If you ever found out the truth,
Im sorry that i lied.
Sorry and forgive me.
Cause i dont wanna you to get worry.
And i wont leave.
I will be strong,
so dont worry.
Sorry, forgive me.
Just dont get affected by it,
cause nothing will happen.
Dont be angry with me,
cause the most important thing is you to be by my side.
And not leave my side like how you wish to.
Didnt tell you cause you will get worry for me.


I felt that this month is so alike to July.
July, the month i dont wanna recall.
The month with full hurtful memories.

The promises you made
Couldn't finish what you started
Only darkness still remains

Woke up late today.
Wanted to take cab to school,
but i realised i cant talk properly.
Sore throat is back again:(
Went to school,
and i realised something was gone.
search my pocket, bag again and again.
Called home,
mommy cant find it at first.
I was so depressed and almost breakdown.
Did stupid things to forget about it,
till going down to the canteen,
mommy called and she found it.
SO HAPPY!!
Didnt eat the lunch provided in school.
Waited for the group heading to EPPS.
After that took bus to EPPS,
we are like 1 hour plus earlier.
Called Mdm Rosina.
Then i brought them to the nearby minimart.
Ran home to take my thing.
Chit chat,
went back to the gate there at 11.20pm.
Left to WS.
Didnt eat for Lunch.
Bought frozen yogurt,
tried the new flavour, Green apple.
Took bus back to school.
Slack,
They blew balloons,
Noticeboard.
Played SPELLER,
so bored till we decided to go home.
ANNE, KENNETH, MELVYN and I went to Coffee Express for "dinner"
Thats my breakfast, lunch and dinner
Kinda sad:(
Supposed to meet XY,
but im kinda tired.
SORRY!! :(

im so glad i didnt lost it.

What am I suppose to do when the best part of me was always you
what am I suppose to say when i'm all choked up and you're OK
I'm falling to pieces

Went to catch Paranormal activity again.
Bought tickets at 7.25pm.
Played bowling first.
Played two games.
First game, 123. Second game, 127.
Went NTUC buy food.
Then went in to the cinema.
Sat at the same row again.
But different seat number,
Some part of the show i asked Arisa not to watch.
After movie,
Went to find XY.
Waited for her at Interchange.
Went to Mac,
Ice cream.
E and Joycelyn came.
Then ate cup noodles outside Ananas Cafe.
Walked home.
Tmr gonna wake up at 7:(
but im happy to have events like everyday.

So if I did something wrong
Please tell me
I wanna understand
'Cause I don't want
This love to ever end

Went back to school for the last training for the new batch of Sec2s.
Tmr will be going back to school to help out.
My brother will be collecting results tmr.
So nervous for him actually.
After the training,
Went to DTE with ANNE, ARUN,DELSAR,HAFIFAH,JANSON, JOLENE,MELVYN,DANIAL and SAMANTHA( i think i miss someone out:X)
Went to cycle.
Some went home.
Cycled Double bike with ANNE.
Chit chat with her,
was nice.
So long didnt talk to her.:D
After cycling, took a photo and home.
Going to meet ARISA soon,
Gonna catch Paranormal again.
Maybe meeting XY later on.
Will upload the photos when i reach home.

having a bad sorethroat.
Pain~

And yes there are times when I hate you
But I don't complain
Cause I've been afraid that you would walk away
Oh but now I don't hate you I'm happy to say
That I will be there at the end of the day

Didnt play BBall with WX and all.
Too tired and i overslept.
So i slept on my mommy' bed,
till XY called.
Still didnt wake up.
Till Waynn called.
Woke up.
Prepare,
Took bus to WS to meet XY and E.
Arcade.
Slack around.
Had dinner at Kopitiam.
Slack there.
Then back to arcade again.
Then decided to go to DTE arcade.
Played BBall there.
this time got improved compared to WS arcade one.
445:D
those guys playing also, look at my score and was like,
lose to a girl, no face le la.
Then i over there laughing la.
Then after arcade,
Mac.
Slack.
Rush home for some reason.
:D

So long never go out with Ros and YS.

what if tmr is gonna be the day i leave?
i guess you wont bother too.

We fell so far away from where we used to be
Now we're standing and where do we go
When there's no road to get to your heart
Let's start over again

went to help out in GG camp.
didnt really need much help.
some careless things i did.
First was the hot water at the Staff Room.
Twice!
Second was the Seaweed shaker fries.
Sorry SHIKIN!
Fell asleep halfway talking to XY.
Till 6.
SO COLD!!
Played Netball.
Daddy came to pick me up.
:D

found some thing.
memories,
will always be rememeber and wanted it again.

I know this isnt what I wanted,
never thought it'd come this far,
just thinking back to where we started
& how we lost all that we are

Went to LYZA's house to get bicycle.
Cycle to Central.
Bought drinks.
back to school,
played Waynn's blade.
I was practising on my own.
My very good friend, LYZA, pull me.
And i ended up on the floor.
LOL.
So funny,
Had some skin tear.
Nothing much.
Then waited for GG Amazing race to start.
Then cycle around.
Back to school.
To our staion and hide.
So funny.
Going back to school to ton.
Sad, Waynn cant stay.
Lyza also cant.

If you give, give the first dance to me.
I'm gon' cherish every moment, cuase this only happens once, once in a lifetime.

yesterday went to WS to meet XY, Joycelyn and E.
They had their dinner,
saw JM, Waynn and all.
Chit chat with them,
helping GG later.
:D
Then went to look for XY they all.
XY played drum.
Then took bus 21 to Tampines.
Then waited for Haojie and Wentjie.
Took MRT back to WS.
Then chit chat and two of them have their dinner.
I wasnt talking to them.
Listening to my music.
Decided to walk home alone.


my only wish,
not to let you know anything about me.

Its done and you`re gone, this doesnt count
But now that you`ve gone away i`ve realised every day
I made a mistake, you`re the best thing i`ve ever found

Met Adrian and Larry.
Wanted to bowl,
but got tournament on till 7pm.
slack at arcade.
then ate Mac.
Waited for XY to come.
Then to WS arcade.
XY played drum,
Played Basketball.
Then took bus 109 to Loyang Point there.
Met XY's friend.
Then to his house.
Chit chat till his 2 friends came.
Mahjong session for them.
New friends, they're friendly and open:D
Then another friend came.
2am, left his house.
walked till Anne's house nearby 7-11.
Bought cup noodle.
Walked till WS.
Then cab home.

i decided to let go.
and mom and bro are like saying about ...........
forget it. i wont go.
let me just ...

Wanna take it back to the day when we first met,
If I could, I'd start all over again...
Our love is My Regret

Watched 2012 with XY.
We catch the 11.20pm and the movie end already 2 plus.
After that,
E came. Slack at Mac.
i keep wanting to vomit out the stupid peanut taste.
But cant.
i know why i vomit when i travel to HK.
Cause of the PEANUT!!
Then slack at Mac.
Then walked home.
Later going bowling:D
Then meet XY around 7.30pm.

To XY:
i know you say you wont.
but when he's gone again,
thats when you might regret again.
thats all, think properly.
dont just because of the past then dont give a chance.
People do change, remember that.
And you rest well.
Drink more water.
See ya :D

Took my heart to the limit, and this is where I'll stay
I can't go any further then this
I want you so bad it's my only wish

Went back to school for CCA.
Didnt do much,
helped the Track side.
Conditioning mostly.
Pace some of the girls in some of the exercise.
Slacked in the toilet.
something that very long never do already.
Waited for the dancers.
Then bashed Isabella.
Wash up.
DTE.
Lunch at KFC with Liyana, Elle and Nitamie.
Then bowling.
Girls left.
Waited,
played 2 games.
The feeling of it,
something i missed alot.
1st was 111.
2nd was like 70 plus.
:)
Bought tickets for later movie at 11.20pm.
Catching with XY, 2012.
And meeting Xueting, TW and ZK later for dinner at Bedok 85
:D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ISABELLA TAN!!


iwontgo,
causeimafraidoftheresult.

Why must humans live life in a weird way?
Why must humans live in a miserable life?
Why must humans live their life with full of pain?
Why must a human die so quickly?
Why must a human have emotions?
Why must humans know what is LOVE?
Why must humans feel pain?
Why must humans learn after someone left or die?
Why must humans be alive?
Why cant humans tell what is really on their mind?
Why cant people tell what is rght and wrong?
Why cant someone love a person and sacrifices their life?
Why cant humans live in a happy life?
Why cant people tell each other how they feel?
Why cant people tell each other what they're thinking?
Why cant people tell the truth?
Why cant both person be together when they love each other?
Why cant everyone be like a happy family?
Why cant everyone have a perfect life?

If you take away your love from me
You know I would die
Cause Im not ready for goodbye

Woke up late,
Went to Central to buy Soya Bean.
Helped Lyza with the IDK how to spell.
Then teabreak and all.
Taught L.G. how to play Peace by the river.
JJC people came.
Played Wacko, ClingCling and MRT.
Then went to Dance Studio.
Took photo with LG.
Then played some game.
Then went for teabreak again.
Back to MPH,
Learn dance.
Partner was actually Janson.
But i changed to Aliza,
cause of some reasons.
LOL.
hahaXD.
Show some games to the JJC.
Took group photos,
debrief and off to WS with Hafifah and Dorothy.
Went home and XY called.
Took bus to WS to look for XY and Cheryl.
Arcade.
Dinner.
DTE.
Arcade.
MAC.
Arcade again.
Then Mac for drinks
and home:D

Darkness in the night, I'll find that light for you
As long as I got eyes, I'll have a sight for you
As long as I'm alive, baby I'll die for you

Went to school for LTC.
was fun.
enjoy.
later also have.
:)
memories.:D
Parents and younger brother going to malaysia later.
Went to look for Adrian, David and Ryan.
They at DTE arcade.
slack,
then MAC.
Played poker there.
Raining,
wait for the rain to stop.
Went home,
bathe and changed.
OUT to look for them.
Then slack.
Around 10 plus, XY came.
then slack again till 12 plus then go home.
:D

icant,
i wished i could.

I wanted to bowl just now.
But Waynn dont want to.
I miss BOWLING.!
The last time i played was on my birthday?
Kinda lost touch with it.
Memories over there,
i guess should just start all over again.
to replace the old and bad memories.

Everyday definitiely have some events on,
finding things to occupy
my life,
my thinking,
cause it can just kill a person,
and thats me.

just one day,
i can do it.
TIME!

so, no i know i should of treated you better
but me and you were meant to last forever

Woke up at 11am.
Went to meet Lyza, Hafifah, Waynn, Fareed and Mitzi.
Watched Paranormal Activity.
Was quite a boring show,
only at the Night part interesting.
First time not scared of this kind of "horor" movie.
Then ate KFC.
Slack,
Adrian came.
Basketball 6 times.
This time got 600 plus already.
:D
Then chit chat at Bowling alley.
Then Adrian went home,
went to meet Ryan, David and Weixian with Waynn.
Chit chat.
Waynn left around 10 plus.
Played Poker till 11.
Ate dinner at 11 plus at Coffee Express.
Took bus home.
Few days never meet XUEYIN le.
Miss her sia.
Tmr i also dont think got chance.
:(
MEET UP SOON:D


HAPPY BIRTHDAY ADRIAN:D

It seems like everyday is a situation
I used to think we were the perfect combination

Yesterday went to bake cookie at JM's house.
Baked till 7 plus 8 pm.
Took bus to DTE.
Met Adrian,
enter chalet.
then chit chat.
Ton till 6am.
took bus home.
Rest for 1 hour and out
Went to help out.
Have fun.
After that, Adrian came.
Pack up,
went Tampines.
David came.
Watched Poker King.
Arcade.
Dinner.
and Home Sweet Home.
Damn tired.!
Put on Contact lens for 24 hours ++.
Nights.:D

Slept at 2 am.
Woke up 8am to prepare to go to school.
Did the voting,
decided to book a chalet.
those want BBQ,
just come for BBQ.
Those want chalet can stay over.
Did some running,
to pace some Sec1s.
Rested while waiting for the boys.
Went home,
bathe and out.
Met the boys at Mac.
Chat with Kenneth.
He BEST SIA!
i asked him to order Medium Sprite.
In the end i got Medium COKE.
Went arcade.
Took MRT to Tampines.
Walked at T1.
Then went to TM.
I asked Kenneth to order for me Vanilla Cone.
In the end i got a Vanilla Milkshake.
LOL.
So unlucky can!
LOL
then went to arcade slack.
Xueyin came,
took bus 3 to WS.
Went arcade,
saw Waynn.
Then Xueyin play drum.
Then accompany Waynn waited for his mom.
Then XY and I went back to aracde.
She played drum again.
Ate Brownie.
Took bus to DTE.
Saw Adrian and Larry.
Slack.
Then Cheryl and Shauna came,
took bus to WS arcade.
Slack.
Then rush back to DTE for movie.
Watched My Girlfriend Is An Agent.
And home.


Hope that 2 dont break the promise.
pain~

Yesterday met Xueting, Teckwoon, Lawrence and Zhi Keong for dinner.
i thought i was the last one,
in the end someone that asked us not to late,
but he, himself, late.
4 trains passby,
we took the train from Tampines towards Whitesands.
Then took back to Tampines.
LOL.
Finally came,
when we are about to decide to board the next train.
Went to Marina Square,
Ate at Pizza Hut.
then walked around.
Photos!:D
Those nice photos are in Xueting's camera.
Took MRT back to Pasir Ris.
Walked to DTE to find Xueyin, XM, Shauna and JL.
Took cab to Lawrence house.
Then Lawrence came down.
Then slack,
Slack till 1am,
took cab back.

a long day today,
i started off with a bad sign.

So baby, if you know everything
Tell me why you couldn't see
When I left I wanted you to chase after me

Didnt meet Xueyin today.
But at least i HEARD her voice,
chat with her till around 2am plus.
All i talked was .............
AHHH!!!
Abit CRAZY early in the morning.
Woke up 10am.
That girl woke up around 1 plus.
Meeting Xueting and all around 5 plus.
Thats why never meet.
I want my BROWNIE:(
Xueyin, OWE me one:X

Plans for TMR:
Training - 9am.
Meet XY@ idk what time.
Meet Lyza and all - idk what time.

Plans for Sat:
At Jiamin's house bake -2pm.
Adrian chalet.

Plans for Sun:
Help Mdm Yasmin - 9am to 3.30pm.

met Xueyin at Whitesands.
She's with ROSALIND.
OMG! she rebond her hair.
LOL. Ros went off with her mom and grandmother.
Xueyin and i walked around the whole Whitesands.
She's looking for job.
We went to arcade slack for awhile.
Took bus to Tampines.
Walked the whole Century Square,
followed by Tampines then Tampines 1.
Took bus to Downtown east.
Slack there.
something fun happened when we're about to leave DTE.
confirm that person sure blog about it.
Xueyin laughed all the way from DTE to Whitesands.
Slack outside Mac.
then took bus home.

tmr going out with Xueting and all.
:D

went to meet Xueyin and Joycelyn.
waited for them at Whitesands.
went to arcade,
saw some familiar faces.
Xueyin, you should know. stalk~
LOL.
Xueyin and Joycelyn went to pierce ear at New Generation.
Wanted to watch My Girlfriend Is An Agent but sadly GV dont have.
Joycelyn went off,
Xueyin and i decided to play at the arcade and stalk people.
Played basketball, was close to break the high score.
She played her drum.
Went to eat dinner.
Took bus 21 to Tampines.
Bought ticket,
walked around.
and went into the cinema to watch Jennifer's body.
its a quite nice movie.
thats actually a sex scene.
so funny.
Movie ended around 11 plus.
Took bus 3,
walking towards the bus stop.
we saw some strands of hair dropped on the floor.
it reminds both of us of one part of the movie.
the part when Jennifer didnt hunt for boys,
and some strands of hair dropped when she comb her hair.
Xueyin and i was like......
so funny.
:D

my right leg is like so weird today.
its like thats a heart in the leg.
and my legs are like shaking in a way.
mom said its getting worse if i dont eat medicine.
:(

'Ya tebya liubliu'
guess the meaning?
LOL.

Quiz on How do you lie?


You lie with how you act. You are a 'glass half full' kind of person, or at least you pretend to be. You act like the person people need. You are quiet and logical in group that needs some morals. You are upbeat and positive in a group that needs some excitement. You a...re kind and understanding when people need a shoulder to cry on. Basically, you lie about who you are. Your kind heart is easily manipulated by people who are just looking to use you, but you have a tendency to bring out the best in people. You are a wonderfully positive person and everyone loves to be around you. You live for your ever growing circle of friends. You lie because you do not think about yourself. You are happy if everyone else is happy, and sometimes have a problem with thinking for yourself. Only your truest friends have seen you when your tolerance has run out, and your best friends are the ones who calm you down and don't take advantage of this. Even if you have had a bad day, you put a smile on for the people who need a positive person around. However, you let your guard down easily for a smooth talker or overly friendly stranger. Your kind heart is open to everyone, which makes you a target for people with bad intentions. Keep your friends close and let them help you pick out the bad people, because they are your weakness. It's true that people could use someone like you, but remember to think about yourself from time to time so you don't explode from holding it all in. You don't want to...

took a quiz on facebook.

Virgo Strength Keywords:
- Analytical
- Observant
- Helpful
- Reliable
- Precise

Virgo Weakness Keywords:
- Skeptical
- Fussy
- Inflexible
- Cold
- Interfering

Virgo and Independence:
Virgo is a very independent zodiac sign. They are fully able to put their intelligence to use and get things done for themselves. It is possible however that their narrow mindedness causes their creativity to suffer and they may lead regular routine lives. They may dwell too much on the past and over complicate things and this may limit their ability to move forward and confuse themselves. In conclusion, Virgos are able to be independent but the less evolved types will have difficult if someone is not there helping them to achieve more and not be so critical of themselves.

Virgo and Friendship:
People look up to Virgo for friends because they are straight thinkers and solve problems logically. They are truthful, loyal and determined. Some people might find them cold or emotionally detached because they live in their minds, not in their emotions and feelings. It might be hard to pin down how a Virgo friend is feeling because they easily live in denial. A person who is able to read deep into another person will notice when Virgo is not well but if they confront them about it, they would rather retreat then talk about it. It is best to keep your emotional distance from a Virgo friend unless they open up to you first. Virgo might try to analyze and control a friend's life but only with the idea that they will improve their life, not purely for the sake of controlling. Be patient with your Virgo friend and understand that their recommendations are only to make your life better.
Virgo and Business:
Virgos are very intelligent, they have an excellent memory and a highly analytical mind. This makes them good investigators and researchers. They also have the ability to probe into a person's emotions and they can often see into people and detect what their motives are. This makes them great policemen or interrogators. Virgos are very good at problem solving, this is what they do best. They are confronted with a problem, they will pick apart the pieces and put it together in the proper order. They are rational thinkers and are good at settling other people's disputes and putting them on the right track for reconciliation. Any position that requires the above features, which is a very long list, is perfect for the Virgo. They keep the world in order.
Virgo Temperament:
Before a Virgo plunges into anything, from a problem to a vacation idea, they need to analyze all the facts and know all the details before they plunge in and make a decision. This makes them seem indecisive and slow. Virgo's perception is their reality, more so then other astrology signs. What they believe is what will be, if they have a negative outlook on life, things will present themselves to be negative and they will be very moody and isolated/detached. If they are positive, the same events that occur will be held in a positive light and they will be a pleasant, well adjusted person. A Virgo mind is a very powerful mind and they must have the proper attitude for their life to be happy and successful. Virgo needs to get in touch with their feelings, this is why they usually seem cold or detached. They are very prone of living in denial. They will say the feel okay or everything is alright even when it's not. This is an easy way out, the one thing that Virgo does not like to analyze is their feelings so pretending everything is okay is a good defense mechanism for not having to take a closer look at their feelings. Virgo has an unpredictable and sometimes unstable temperament.

Virgo Deep Inside:
They need to be organized in their mind, sometimes all their energy is taken from organizing their mind that they have a difficult time organizing their surroundings. They easily look too deep into an issue and over analyze what they percept. Virgo is ambitious and strives to always know more and have more. This is in their eternal quest to bring order to chaos. Even if order is obtained from an outsiders' point of view, Virgo will not be settled for they have a very active mind that is always thinking and can never be silenced. Virgos want to be of use, they need to be important and essential to everyone in their lives and in everything they do. Virgo's major life lesson is to learn to trust in and have faith in the unknown. They have to understand that things in life happen for a reason that is not always known to them, they do not have to always know everything. They need to learn to calm down and not over-analyze a situation or event. Deep inside, Virgo is very sensitive and they need to be appreciated for all the things they do. When is Virgo is offended or hurt, they may never show it.
Virgo in a Nutshell:
Virgo exists in the mind, everything is inside. To the world, Virgo presents a calm and collected exterior but on the inside, nervous uncontrolled intensity in the mind, trying to figure things out, how to improve everything, analyzing and thinking. Virgo can tire itself out without even moving! Virgo has a constant drive to improve and perfect, this can lead to extreme pickiness and finickiest. They are pure, their motives are honest never malicious and they want to accomplish something.

sometimes i really hope i can read someone's mind.
see what are they thinking.
and help them when i saw their thinking.
this few days, have been dreaming of some people.
its so weird,
and i could even cry.
it all seems like its gonna happen but it wont happen.
happy then sad.
dreamt of so many happy memories,
but when i woke up
i realised those wont happen.
i wished so hard not to wake up from those dreams.
but still cant.

im so scared of something.
what if one day,
i cant wake up from my nightmare.
and i really cant wake up.
and i think thats the end of me.
if that really happens,
i dont have the chance to say THANK YOU and my LAST goodbye to some people.
what if one day,
i enter a coma.
and i never know whats gonna happen.
Alive or Dead?

what if one day,
my brain just die and im still surviving in this beautiful world.
just end my life and let me go.

thats a lot of what if.
im so scared.
i dont dare to sleep.
im just so afraid to leave this place.
and i hope my heartbeat will be normal and no pain at my chest.
thats all i can hope.