JIAEN!♥
16 year old, 23ᵀᴴ August.
Student Councillor.
Track & Field.
4A1'09.
LOYANG SECONDARY SCHOOL.

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met Xueyin at Whitesands.
She's with ROSALIND.
OMG! she rebond her hair.
LOL. Ros went off with her mom and grandmother.
Xueyin and i walked around the whole Whitesands.
She's looking for job.
We went to arcade slack for awhile.
Took bus to Tampines.
Walked the whole Century Square,
followed by Tampines then Tampines 1.
Took bus to Downtown east.
Slack there.
something fun happened when we're about to leave DTE.
confirm that person sure blog about it.
Xueyin laughed all the way from DTE to Whitesands.
Slack outside Mac.
then took bus home.

tmr going out with Xueting and all.
:D

went to meet Xueyin and Joycelyn.
waited for them at Whitesands.
went to arcade,
saw some familiar faces.
Xueyin, you should know. stalk~
LOL.
Xueyin and Joycelyn went to pierce ear at New Generation.
Wanted to watch My Girlfriend Is An Agent but sadly GV dont have.
Joycelyn went off,
Xueyin and i decided to play at the arcade and stalk people.
Played basketball, was close to break the high score.
She played her drum.
Went to eat dinner.
Took bus 21 to Tampines.
Bought ticket,
walked around.
and went into the cinema to watch Jennifer's body.
its a quite nice movie.
thats actually a sex scene.
so funny.
Movie ended around 11 plus.
Took bus 3,
walking towards the bus stop.
we saw some strands of hair dropped on the floor.
it reminds both of us of one part of the movie.
the part when Jennifer didnt hunt for boys,
and some strands of hair dropped when she comb her hair.
Xueyin and i was like......
so funny.
:D

my right leg is like so weird today.
its like thats a heart in the leg.
and my legs are like shaking in a way.
mom said its getting worse if i dont eat medicine.
:(

'Ya tebya liubliu'
guess the meaning?
LOL.

Quiz on How do you lie?


You lie with how you act. You are a 'glass half full' kind of person, or at least you pretend to be. You act like the person people need. You are quiet and logical in group that needs some morals. You are upbeat and positive in a group that needs some excitement. You a...re kind and understanding when people need a shoulder to cry on. Basically, you lie about who you are. Your kind heart is easily manipulated by people who are just looking to use you, but you have a tendency to bring out the best in people. You are a wonderfully positive person and everyone loves to be around you. You live for your ever growing circle of friends. You lie because you do not think about yourself. You are happy if everyone else is happy, and sometimes have a problem with thinking for yourself. Only your truest friends have seen you when your tolerance has run out, and your best friends are the ones who calm you down and don't take advantage of this. Even if you have had a bad day, you put a smile on for the people who need a positive person around. However, you let your guard down easily for a smooth talker or overly friendly stranger. Your kind heart is open to everyone, which makes you a target for people with bad intentions. Keep your friends close and let them help you pick out the bad people, because they are your weakness. It's true that people could use someone like you, but remember to think about yourself from time to time so you don't explode from holding it all in. You don't want to...

took a quiz on facebook.

Virgo Strength Keywords:
- Analytical
- Observant
- Helpful
- Reliable
- Precise

Virgo Weakness Keywords:
- Skeptical
- Fussy
- Inflexible
- Cold
- Interfering

Virgo and Independence:
Virgo is a very independent zodiac sign. They are fully able to put their intelligence to use and get things done for themselves. It is possible however that their narrow mindedness causes their creativity to suffer and they may lead regular routine lives. They may dwell too much on the past and over complicate things and this may limit their ability to move forward and confuse themselves. In conclusion, Virgos are able to be independent but the less evolved types will have difficult if someone is not there helping them to achieve more and not be so critical of themselves.

Virgo and Friendship:
People look up to Virgo for friends because they are straight thinkers and solve problems logically. They are truthful, loyal and determined. Some people might find them cold or emotionally detached because they live in their minds, not in their emotions and feelings. It might be hard to pin down how a Virgo friend is feeling because they easily live in denial. A person who is able to read deep into another person will notice when Virgo is not well but if they confront them about it, they would rather retreat then talk about it. It is best to keep your emotional distance from a Virgo friend unless they open up to you first. Virgo might try to analyze and control a friend's life but only with the idea that they will improve their life, not purely for the sake of controlling. Be patient with your Virgo friend and understand that their recommendations are only to make your life better.
Virgo and Business:
Virgos are very intelligent, they have an excellent memory and a highly analytical mind. This makes them good investigators and researchers. They also have the ability to probe into a person's emotions and they can often see into people and detect what their motives are. This makes them great policemen or interrogators. Virgos are very good at problem solving, this is what they do best. They are confronted with a problem, they will pick apart the pieces and put it together in the proper order. They are rational thinkers and are good at settling other people's disputes and putting them on the right track for reconciliation. Any position that requires the above features, which is a very long list, is perfect for the Virgo. They keep the world in order.
Virgo Temperament:
Before a Virgo plunges into anything, from a problem to a vacation idea, they need to analyze all the facts and know all the details before they plunge in and make a decision. This makes them seem indecisive and slow. Virgo's perception is their reality, more so then other astrology signs. What they believe is what will be, if they have a negative outlook on life, things will present themselves to be negative and they will be very moody and isolated/detached. If they are positive, the same events that occur will be held in a positive light and they will be a pleasant, well adjusted person. A Virgo mind is a very powerful mind and they must have the proper attitude for their life to be happy and successful. Virgo needs to get in touch with their feelings, this is why they usually seem cold or detached. They are very prone of living in denial. They will say the feel okay or everything is alright even when it's not. This is an easy way out, the one thing that Virgo does not like to analyze is their feelings so pretending everything is okay is a good defense mechanism for not having to take a closer look at their feelings. Virgo has an unpredictable and sometimes unstable temperament.

Virgo Deep Inside:
They need to be organized in their mind, sometimes all their energy is taken from organizing their mind that they have a difficult time organizing their surroundings. They easily look too deep into an issue and over analyze what they percept. Virgo is ambitious and strives to always know more and have more. This is in their eternal quest to bring order to chaos. Even if order is obtained from an outsiders' point of view, Virgo will not be settled for they have a very active mind that is always thinking and can never be silenced. Virgos want to be of use, they need to be important and essential to everyone in their lives and in everything they do. Virgo's major life lesson is to learn to trust in and have faith in the unknown. They have to understand that things in life happen for a reason that is not always known to them, they do not have to always know everything. They need to learn to calm down and not over-analyze a situation or event. Deep inside, Virgo is very sensitive and they need to be appreciated for all the things they do. When is Virgo is offended or hurt, they may never show it.
Virgo in a Nutshell:
Virgo exists in the mind, everything is inside. To the world, Virgo presents a calm and collected exterior but on the inside, nervous uncontrolled intensity in the mind, trying to figure things out, how to improve everything, analyzing and thinking. Virgo can tire itself out without even moving! Virgo has a constant drive to improve and perfect, this can lead to extreme pickiness and finickiest. They are pure, their motives are honest never malicious and they want to accomplish something.

sometimes i really hope i can read someone's mind.
see what are they thinking.
and help them when i saw their thinking.
this few days, have been dreaming of some people.
its so weird,
and i could even cry.
it all seems like its gonna happen but it wont happen.
happy then sad.
dreamt of so many happy memories,
but when i woke up
i realised those wont happen.
i wished so hard not to wake up from those dreams.
but still cant.

im so scared of something.
what if one day,
i cant wake up from my nightmare.
and i really cant wake up.
and i think thats the end of me.
if that really happens,
i dont have the chance to say THANK YOU and my LAST goodbye to some people.
what if one day,
i enter a coma.
and i never know whats gonna happen.
Alive or Dead?

what if one day,
my brain just die and im still surviving in this beautiful world.
just end my life and let me go.

thats a lot of what if.
im so scared.
i dont dare to sleep.
im just so afraid to leave this place.
and i hope my heartbeat will be normal and no pain at my chest.
thats all i can hope.

bored. treasure mania restart le. changed to treasure madness.
must restart.
from level 3o till level 1.
sad:(

我玩坏我的身体了.
i guess i will be fine.

went out with Jessy, Stefanie and Yvonne Liew.
went to EXPO, Robinson sales.
bought tee shirt.
had lunch at BK.
took MRT back to Whitesands.
Met Xueyin at Library with Shauna and Cheryl.
Chit chat.
went to Challenger to check if they sell the headphone i wanted.
and i FOUND IT.
Bought it. SO HAPPY!
One purple and orange tee.
now also got PURPLE Headphone:D
decide what to do,
was drizzling.
so we decided to cycle in the rain.
waited for them at Elias Mall.
cycled to Tampines Connector there.
then slack under one of the block.
chit chat abit.
9 plus, cycled back.
:D

chat with Xueyin this morning,
from 1:39am till 4am sharp.
chatted for 2hours and 21 mins.
chit chat,
laugh at people's blog and talk about shows.
woke up at 9am,
cause sleep:(
didntfeelpainytd.
so glad.
but now its starting to....,
but still can take it.
whats wrong?
why pain?

my previous blogskin got some problem.
so changed blogskin.
found some template that i prefer.
didnt change much.
parents not home yet.
brothers sleeping.
changed blogskin for my private blog also.
LOL.
im bored.
ihaventfeelthe_ _ _ _ yet.
should be later bah.

the video is so sad. :(

happy memories indeed dont last long.
i hate to say that,
but its so true.
i realised i have been living with lies,
something that is so common.
when i faced it,
i pretend that its all the truth.
cause truth hurts.
i had enough of lies.
but i have to continue that,
just to ..............
please, get me out of that.

finished watching Hot Shot online.
the show is so nice.
i dont have to wait till 11.30pm just to watch a half an hour show.
but this doesnt mean i wont stay up till 2 am going 3am.
heheXD.


pain~
ihadtolietomyselftosleep.

just realised time pass so quickly.

SONG LYRICS!

Why am I here on the outside,
with all these feelings kept inside.
Why is it never the right time,
I'm so confused.

shivering,heartbeat
muscles aching. weak~

i suspected something this afternoon.
i feel so terrible~
i wont say.
i guess,
im getting weaker

this two days has been heading down to help daddy.
its so tiring that i cant have the time to think of anything.
every day and every night,
sleeping at 2 am.
wake up around 10 plus 11.
it goes on till the day when there is training.
and thats the day i will start to get busy.
planning bbq/chalet.
16112009- SC outing:D
17112009-19112009- the new batch of Student Leader's day camp
cant wait to get involve in events so i can keep myself busy.

you know i do,
stillmissyou

how i wish time could pass quickly,
till a day that i wish long time ago.
4 months ago,
i have been hoping and wishing to ton outside.
running away from home just for a day,
to the beach.
looking at the scenery,
thinking and reflecting,it will be great.
didnt have the chance
soon thats bbq/chalet, and i cant wait.
gonna stay out for one day.
looking forward.
:D

the first time i look into the sky,
searching for a star or light.
couldnt find any.
was about to sleep,
decided to try again,
a little sky shining up high.
everyday, everynight,
a star can clear all thoughts.
wont that be great?
goodnight:D

a touching movie.
alot of sad scenes.

going back to the past just for the loved one.
if that happens to me,
LOL.

today seems like i cant MIA.
just came home from DTE.
watched Love Happens with Ori.
a very meanigful and touching show.

the guy's wife die in a car accident.
so he started to write books.
to motivate people that lost their loved ones.
he saw this girl.
the girl tried to help him to do those things that he cant have the courage to do.
when the wife pass away,
the guy didnt go to his wife's furneral.
the guy didnt have the courage to meet her parents.
one day, he realised and he told the truth.
he lied that his wife drove the car and in the middle of the road thats a dog and the car skid and bang the lamppost and instant death.
he was the one that drove the car.

its a sad movie but i learn things from this movie.
humans lied to make him or herself to feel better.
thinking that it will make them move on.
but inside them, they cant move on.
its easy to say but hard to do.
it takes a lot of courage to take the first step.

when i walked home, i thought of other things.
people said that suicide is the most cowardly act ever.
but i disagree to a certain extent.
letting go at a point where you dont have to torture yourself anymore.
continue the life, full of miserable due to different personality.
anybody's life will end one day, its only now or future.
but i agree that its cowardly act.
running away from reality.
foolish.
just because of a small matter,
you sacrifices your life for it.

from the different personality and dont want to get hurt anymore.
i wished that someone could take my emotions away.
so i cant feel anything.
just like a stone, machine or robot.
emotions can really bring someone to a extent that they die.


someone is gonna say im not wise,
but its the truth.

the beginning of a new month.
going MIA
dont contact me tmr,
wont be picking up calls.
or replying messages.
:)



nolongerimportant.

have been updating both private and this blog.
lots of post this few weeks.
this blog is more for people to read.
private blog is more for true feelings and thinking.




talk to me. those moments dont last long

raining so heavily.
lightning, thunder and heavy rain.
i just finish walking in the rain.
the rain hit on my face.
im awake but my inner emotions are not.
rain rain rain.
thunder, loud.
lightning, bright.
emotions, lost.
shirt, wet.
hair, wet.
sick, soon.